I can't wait a moment more, tell me quando quando quando

And yes, I spelled 'quando' correctly. It's Italian, not Spanish. I pride myself on being able to spell well in all the languages I speak, and then in some that I don't.

Jess convinced me to grow a pair and express emotion and feelings. I told Mario how I feel. Not sure how I feel about having him know, but I definitely know that I have a crush. I feel like I'm 15 again when I say things like that, but its totally how I feel. We talked about it, and I'm still not sure where he stands. I get such freaking mixed signals from him, I wish that feelings were black and white instead of all these shades of grey. I never know how to handle the grey areas of relationships. How the hell do I manage to fix everyone else, but I'm still broken?

He makes me ridiculously giddy, though. I can't get him out of my head, like he's always on my mind. I have this creepy feeling that this is a really good thing and I'm just kind of waiting things out. I don't want to make the same mistakes I've made in the past by rushing into this. He's happy with things going slow, dating, staying where we are now I guess. So take one day at a time, right? I want concrete feelings and emotion though.

Like what the fuck universe, can't you make things easy on me for once?!